Jillian Fiero

 GPC Student  Fall 2006

      I’m What?

            “I’m pregnant!” the words that screamed in my head like a siren. I knew in my heart before I went to the doctor that I was, but I didn’t want to believe it. Walking into the doctor’s office began my new life and the end of the fun one I used to have.

             “Ms. Fiero, follow me” Slowly getting up from the chair feeling as if I had concrete shoes on I followed her to the bathroom where she handed me the cup. I know that everyone knows what you do in that. I did and turned over the rest of my life to a nurse at a desk. I sat in the room waiting on the doctor to come in with the final result. Within ten minutes she walked in and said the words that sealed my fate, “You’re pregnant.” I am not saying that I wasn’t excited to be having a baby but I was in no way ready for the road ahead.

              She asked me to lie back so she could feel my abdomen and get an idea of how far along I was. She asked me all the usual questions. According to my calendar I had to be about two months along. After pushing on me she looked puzzled, “You say two months?” That took me off guard. She pulled out this pen shaped instrument with a flat head. A small speaker and dial were on a box connected to the pen shaped instrument. She set it on my tummy and turned it on. A lot of scraping sounds came blaring out but within a minute the most beautiful sound I could ever imagine was heard “Swish, swish, swish” It just kept going strong and steady. “That is your baby’s heart beat” with those words I felt the swelling of my heart with joy and the dropping of my stomach with fear.

  So with the new discovery of a heartbeat it was concluded that I was more around three months which would mean I was nearing the end of  my first trimester. The enormity of the situation was setting in and doing so quickly. I was going to be a mom; now that is an overwhelming thought.

             So I finished up my visit with many thoughts swimming in my head. I think the scariest thing of all was that I was going to have to face it all on my own. At that moment I felt sick to my stomach. I wasn’t sure if it was the nausea from the pregnancy or the amount of stress now weighing on my mind but I was not feeling well.

              Now for several reasons this was a life changing trip to the doctor. I had lived a swinging singles life. I didn’t have a great deal of responsibility or care for that matter. With those simple words and short trip to the doctor everything changed. I had to grow up in a quick minute, I had to change everything about what I was doing and how I was doing it.